New here awaiting official diagnosis

Hi I’m Cee, 

I have lots of depression and my mental health team seem adamant I’m autistic. It makes sense I guess. I’ve struggled forever. I feel broken though. Like I don’t belong and never will belong and the world isn’t made for me. I have a 12 year old son. I self harm too. Everything is getting worse. I struggle to talk verbally. I’m now on summer holidays from work. I saw my physiatrist today but it didn’t go well. I feel like I’m not wanted. I guess I’m not. I’ve attempted suicide a few times. How do you guys cope? I get so many emotions. I feel so alone. 

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  • Welcome.

    If there is one message I could successfully convey to you; it is that:

    ...you are precious.

    "Precious", in both positive senses of the word:

    "adjective
    of great value; not to be wasted or treated carelessly.
    "precious works of art"
    noun
    used as a term of address for a beloved person.
    "don't be frightened, my precious"."
    (As you get to know our community more, I hope you will come to recognise that you are by no means alone in learning how to navigate that sometimes unusual-seeming world out there).
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  • Welcome.

    If there is one message I could successfully convey to you; it is that:

    ...you are precious.

    "Precious", in both positive senses of the word:

    "adjective
    of great value; not to be wasted or treated carelessly.
    "precious works of art"
    noun
    used as a term of address for a beloved person.
    "don't be frightened, my precious"."
    (As you get to know our community more, I hope you will come to recognise that you are by no means alone in learning how to navigate that sometimes unusual-seeming world out there).
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