Stimming

Hi I’d like to ask a question related to stimming. Is it something you feel you consciously or unconsciously  choose to do? I do find myself rocking or stimming with my hands without even thinking about it, but also will reach for my favourite cuddly toy as the material feels so nice to me, and that one is definitely consciously choosing to do it. I know that I have always stimmed a lot but sadly mask when with others as it makes me worry what people will assume about me. No one thinks it’s normal for a 50 year old woman to suck her thumb but it just feels so good. As someone who isn’t diagnosed but I score very highly in every test I’ve done, this is all new to me as I just thought it was how I was, but adding a lot of things together and researching shows I am definitely on the spectrum and my mind has been crying out for help for a long time. 

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  • It came up at my assessment, they noticed I would start to rock back and forth, this would stop as soon as I became self aware of it. I would then switch to a less noticeable stim. I’m more comfortable stimming at home, I wouldn’t in public unless it was something unnoticeable. I read one of your earlier posts, my wife is a nurse in her 50’s, she worked in endoscopy for quite a long while, for the last 6 years she has worked in the community as a Community nurse.

  • my wife is a nurse in her 50’s, she worked in endoscopy for quite a long while

    I had an endoscopy last week in hospital. Up the nose and down the throat, this had always been a fear of mine as I struggle with panic attacks which makes my throat feel restricted and in turn feel like being sick. Needless to say I felt ashamed having 4 or 5 people in the room watching a 50 year old have a panic attack and in tears whilst having a complete meltdown.

    I am quite proud of myself now though for managing it in a fashion. 

  • Although I’m a nurse I have had big panic attacks having dental treatment, it’s just so invasive and feels so out of control. The second time I had a wisdom tooth out at the hospital under local anaesthetic I cried so much and no one helped me, it made it a hundred times worse that no one cared. I’ve also had a problem having cervical smear tests but the nurse who carries those out knows how to help me stay calm by telling me funny stories. 

  • I’m sorry about your panic attacks at the dentist, this has happened to me on a few occasions. 
    I had an almighty one a few years ago but they were very kind and understanding but still quite an embarrassing experience. 

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