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Autistic imposter syndrome

Autismman

I’ve posted about this before I’m sure but I am still fighting the feeling of being a fraud daily. I hope one day I just accept it and move on but at the moment I’m trying to get as much information on imposter syndrome as possible. I found a YouTuber who did a video on the subject and one of the lines in the script were as follows; 

“I think that you have ignored your needs and limitations for so long that to listen to them now you need to amplify them which feels like exaggeration and now you are acknowledging the things that overstimulate you in the day it’s not building up in your system where you take it out on the people you care about” - GenericArtDad

After a diagnosis I suppose it’s only natural to look more inward than you did before, especially if you are not sure you can fully accept it or move on swiftly after or have any doubts. The spectrum is almost like looking up at the stars and trying to find one no one’s ever seen before then claiming it for your own. To find your own place on the spectrum can be tricky, well for me it is because as I may have mentioned in previous posts I do not have every single typical autistic behaviour.

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  • I saw a description which seems quite good if you know what a graphic equaliser is (a hifi or music thing that has lots of little sliders that move up or down).

    Each autism trait is like one of the little sliders. Each person has their own unique settings. It is not a nice smooth line, but a set of discrete separate settings.

    I don't know how many there are, might be 20, or 50 or  100. Some are more popular than others 

    Some may be all the way up or all the way down.

    I also think they can be amplified if you are stressed or reduced if everything is good. This is why you feel a fraud some days because everything has been turned down.

    I also thing the output has to reach a certain level to be noticeable. So some don't get over the threshold some days.

    (I think this may be my issue with emotions, they have to get above a certain level before I notice them, then they tend to be quite strong and I wonder where they came from, then they go down a bit and I feel nothing again. I think this is why I get so confused about what I feel  and struggle with lack of consistency.)

  • in reply to Stuart333

    Thank you, that’s a very good way of looking at it. I wish I was one of those who didn’t doubt things but here we are.  Emotions are a tricky thing for sure, I am not certain on my own a lot of the time which makes choices very difficult especially if they have consequences.

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