Autistic imposter syndrome

I’ve posted about this before I’m sure but I am still fighting the feeling of being a fraud daily. I hope one day I just accept it and move on but at the moment I’m trying to get as much information on imposter syndrome as possible. I found a YouTuber who did a video on the subject and one of the lines in the script were as follows; 

“I think that you have ignored your needs and limitations for so long that to listen to them now you need to amplify them which feels like exaggeration and now you are acknowledging the things that overstimulate you in the day it’s not building up in your system where you take it out on the people you care about” - GenericArtDad

After a diagnosis I suppose it’s only natural to look more inward than you did before, especially if you are not sure you can fully accept it or move on swiftly after or have any doubts. The spectrum is almost like looking up at the stars and trying to find one no one’s ever seen before then claiming it for your own. To find your own place on the spectrum can be tricky, well for me it is because as I may have mentioned in previous posts I do not have every single typical autistic behaviour.

Parents
  • Yeah I’ve had Autistic imposter syndrome, too. That’s why it took me a few years to join this forum despite knowing about it around the time I was diagnosed. When I was diagnosed my psychiatrist said that she considered me “borderline” for the ASD diagnosis, which only made the imposter syndrome a little worse. As my wife has pointed out before: The issue is that I am Autistic, but I don’t look/act the way people generally expect from an Autistic person.

    All that to say, you’re not alone in that.

  • How did you get your head around it and finally accept it for what it is? Just time? 

Reply Children
  • Yes my son is in the process of being assessed for ASD and my daughter definitely shows traits of ADHD also. Most of my issues seem to be around routine, predictable daily or self chosen activities and lack of desire to be around others socially. I also have restrictive interests which mostly centre around topics I see as fundamental to existence so nature would probably be at the top of that with several related topics branching off. International politics has snuck in over the past few years because I long for a deeper understanding of its workings. But in terms of autism itself this forum is probably one of the better ones I’ve found.

  • I still deal with it from time to time to be honest. But yes, time has helped. Actually interacting with others on here with ASD has helped. And I think that my daughter also getting diagnosed with AuDHD has helped as well. It’s kind of all culminated into me mostly accepting that I don’t have to be the poster child for Autism in order to have it.