Guess what I'm looking for is some sorta validation, i have been kicked out of a the only support group meet ups and I im feeling lonely, im starting to wonder why if even autstics find me off putting I've noticed this because I have multiple other issues like bpd aswell , and if have both autstim and bpd diagnosed, i put myself out there but no one gets back to me.
People even autstic people probably think im even to blunt for them , and i don't mean to hurt people, that's why I'm autstic like im bad at social stuff and offending others or them misinterpreting things, but i feel like most autstic people don't get kicked out of groups and they all get along mostly and they have some base level of harmony, they are all different but fit the mold essentially I've seen but i feel like a freak even with other high functioning autstics i know many people don't like this term , i just don't know how best to describe it , I feel like today its hard not to offend people and with me being autstic its becoming increasingly difficult anxiety to know the right wrong thing to say and it feels like even other autstics think im bad and won't let me back in group.
I guess what I'm trying to ask is has anyone had a similar experience i feel so alone like my experience is odd not normal.
My experience.
*offended other autstics a high majority agaisnt you
*getting kicked out support groups
*people not wanting to be your friend (I don't paticularly think im nessarly a horrible person)
*alone isolated feeling like a freak amoung autstics myself.
* I im capable of forming a flowing conversation and been in threapy for 1year and have a successful reltionship with healthy communication which has took a while , but I'm capable of maintaining friendship and seeing a others point of view , and understanding or at least I try my best if I can't relate to situation.
Thank you for anybody who responds , I know its a long shot to know if someone has been through somthing similar here but I really feel like a true odd one.