So I am feeling a bit down and frustrated at the moment. I used to work as a apprentice student veterinary nurse, I did 40 hour weeks but it was okay because I enjoyed it. I was around people all day, I worked hard, I communicated with people. We were short staffed but I was managing. I was there for nearly 4 years but for a lot of the last few months I had started really struggling for some reason. Feeling super anxious, down, crying all the time not being able to concentrate. I got signed off for a while but eventually left after a few failed attempts at coming back. I went on meds for my anxiety and then got diagnosed as autistic. I started a new job not too long as after left the old one. This time in a school doing behind the scenes admin work and cleaning. Its 20 hours a week so half the time, nowhere near as much responsibility, not around people as much. I was doing okayish at first but now I am struggling again. Feeling anxious, feeling down and stuck almost. Its like I'm not happy and this is not the job I want to do but I don't think I could go back to the nursing right now anyway as I am still struggling as before. I just don't understand how I can go to working all the time to struggling so much in a much simpler job. And I don't know how to feel unstuck as right now no job seems right and my mum tells me a lot of people don't enjoy their job but like I feel my feels are so big. Like I look at it realistically and the job is not bad and the people are nice and supportive but for some reason when I'm there, its not just ugh this sucks, its I hate it, I am stressed, I am overwhelmed I can't do this. But every day I go and I push through because I need a job and I need money.
Sorry for the rant, I am not really sure what I wanted from this I just needed to let it out. Anyone else gone through anything similar? Do people work and if so how do you cope? What sort of jobs do you do?
