Hey there, I'm new here so I'm not sure where to begin, but hopefully this is the right place. 
I'm 99.9% certain I'm undiagnosed autistic. I'm in my late 20s and I've never seeked any help beyond counselling about a year ago, and the things regarding autism were taking a back foot. I'm waiting to hear back from Psych UK after filling in my forms in March, but everything sort of checks out - my partner and I think so, various people in my personal life have had their suspicions/would not be surprised if I were, and I've consistently scored around the high 20s to low 30s on the few times I've done the AQ50 over the past several months.
Looking into it this deeply has been a new experience for me, and it's been quite daunting. I've listened to an episode off the Adult Autism: A Spectrum of Uniqueness Podcast on Spotify, and it was able to put some things I've felt all my life to words. It got me reflecting on how I often have this built up energy that I need to release in some way - at the best of times, it's on my special interests and going really deep into something just for the sake of it, and at the worst of times it can be destructive, like it's lashing out at people in my life and finding it very difficult to hold back for example. I've also always struggled to make new friends, outside of when we all share a special interest, but even then I find it difficult to make deeper connections with them beyond our shared interests.
Throughout my life I never thought my brain was hardwired differently than other people I was around. I always felt a bit left out when I was in school, or felt like an 'other', and that was probably at its worst then. But now I'm starting to come to terms with this notion that it is, and it's gotten me feeling like that again, except it's different this time around and I'm not quite sure how to express it.
In any case, I'm just looking to see if anyone's got any advice/insights about a few things that I experience, as I'm finding it difficult to get professional help at the moment. Anything at all would be appreciated! 
- I'm irritable when I don't get a consistent amount of sleep (usually 8 hours), and I get annoyed when I can't do what I want to do in that moment (reflected earlier on about the built up energy). I want to be able to control this better, as I know that realistically, I won't always be able to do the things I want to do in the very moments that those urges come to me.
- I tend to mirror the same emotion that I'm being exposed to (e.g. if I'm with someone who's sad, I'm usually sad with them). Not the worst thing in the world, but it gets difficult to supress it if someone's angry at me.
- I struggle to do mundane tasks that, over time, affect my quality of life - putting off doing things that I don't necessarily want to do, but I know that I have to.
- I like repetition and routine, and get thrown off or annoyed when something unpredictable happens/is different to what I originally planned.
- In interpersonal arguments, I often times care more about 'winning' the argument rather than the other party's feelings - more often than not, this is not in a right or wrong kind of argument.
- I often times interrupt or fully don't listen to people in conversations unless I get what's in my head out, and also steer conversations into topics that I'm interested in (sometimes not fully aware of this in the moment). It makes me feel like I make it that what I want to talk about is more important than what the other person or people want to talk about. edit: I don't want this to be the case.
- I have a small number of special interests, and by default find it difficult to expand out of them unless I'm nudged to try new things. I want to be able to experience the best of both worlds better, without feeling like I need to be dragged out of my comfort zone.
- I struggle to articulate, label or communicate my emotions, and find it very difficult to regain control over them when they've taken over me. I've been slightly better at recognising and pointing out when I'm feeling overstimulated, but overall still not something I'm great at.
- I've never been good at making in-depth long term plans or goals, and as a result I rarely ever keep up with things I've set out to do. I usually go all in on short term things, and I know that it's not necessarily sustainable in the long run. Possibly related to the point about mundane tasks.
