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I have late diagnosed Autism and it feels like my brain is fighting me all the time 

I have been signed off work due to a mental health breakdown 5 weeks ago but my brain is telling me I should be at work not trying to repair my mental health 

But I am off with a very valid reason 

Why does my brain act or work like this is this a usual problem with people who have late diagnosis autism 

I experience this fight every day 

Any feedback on this or advice

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  • For decades I have had patterns of overworking, and being driven by the mindset of work being the only possible way to live my life. Then I hit a metaphorical brick wall. Burnout is no joke, and its taken a lot of work to realise that I now need to take the time to recover and heal. Sadly, my mind is still swirling with guilt over not working. It's still swamped with so many negative thoughts that I'm lazy, ignorant or suchlike for being too ill to work.

    It's been two years now since I've been able to 'properly' work. I've entered counselling and therapy but still am struggling.

    A big mistake I keep making is to do everything I've been putting off on the good days. Sadly, this means I have a refraction period of bad days where my energy, motivation, and pain levels are so high that they interfere with my ability to do stuff. Basically, I'm having trouble identifying my natural rhythms of good and bad days then plan accordingly.

    I wish I could tell you why some people's brains work this way, but you're not alone. I too am late diagnosed autistic (6 months ago at the age of 38).

    My best advice would be to take it seriously. Try to work out what relaxes or soothes you. Try not to overdo things on your 'good' days (yes this is hypocritical I know, but I'm trying).

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  • For decades I have had patterns of overworking, and being driven by the mindset of work being the only possible way to live my life. Then I hit a metaphorical brick wall. Burnout is no joke, and its taken a lot of work to realise that I now need to take the time to recover and heal. Sadly, my mind is still swirling with guilt over not working. It's still swamped with so many negative thoughts that I'm lazy, ignorant or suchlike for being too ill to work.

    It's been two years now since I've been able to 'properly' work. I've entered counselling and therapy but still am struggling.

    A big mistake I keep making is to do everything I've been putting off on the good days. Sadly, this means I have a refraction period of bad days where my energy, motivation, and pain levels are so high that they interfere with my ability to do stuff. Basically, I'm having trouble identifying my natural rhythms of good and bad days then plan accordingly.

    I wish I could tell you why some people's brains work this way, but you're not alone. I too am late diagnosed autistic (6 months ago at the age of 38).

    My best advice would be to take it seriously. Try to work out what relaxes or soothes you. Try not to overdo things on your 'good' days (yes this is hypocritical I know, but I'm trying).

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