Comments or feedback needed

I have late diagnosed Autism and it feels like my brain is fighting me all the time 

I have been signed off work due to a mental health breakdown 5 weeks ago but my brain is telling me I should be at work not trying to repair my mental health 

But I am off with a very valid reason 

Why does my brain act or work like this is this a usual problem with people who have late diagnosis autism 

I experience this fight every day 

Any feedback on this or advice

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  • Doctors don't sign people off for nothing.

    I have been close a couple of times but wanted to keep the routine of going to work. Changes are harder when overloaded/burnt out. I didn't show much externally, it am not sure many could tell save for my output dropped. But that just put it closer to other people rather than more. However sleep and personal life collapsed, and I had executive functioning issues.

    You may feel insecure and be worried about your job. You may derive meaning and purpose from work. It is also a source of money which is always a consideration.

    If your work is a special interest it will also be hard to stop.

    The problem is the dysfunctional thinking, which is hard to recognise while you are in it. My subconscious served up all sorts of fears, looping on them, replaying the past endlessly.

    It is hard when your conscious and subconscious disagree. You end up confused about what to believe. Might also be sleep issues affecting this.

    It is also hard to know when you are better. I just feel better each week but I never know what the end point is.

    It is best to try and keep a routine, eat properly, sleep well, take naps if you need them, get some fresh air, try to do something you enjoy and don't feel guilty.

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  • Doctors don't sign people off for nothing.

    I have been close a couple of times but wanted to keep the routine of going to work. Changes are harder when overloaded/burnt out. I didn't show much externally, it am not sure many could tell save for my output dropped. But that just put it closer to other people rather than more. However sleep and personal life collapsed, and I had executive functioning issues.

    You may feel insecure and be worried about your job. You may derive meaning and purpose from work. It is also a source of money which is always a consideration.

    If your work is a special interest it will also be hard to stop.

    The problem is the dysfunctional thinking, which is hard to recognise while you are in it. My subconscious served up all sorts of fears, looping on them, replaying the past endlessly.

    It is hard when your conscious and subconscious disagree. You end up confused about what to believe. Might also be sleep issues affecting this.

    It is also hard to know when you are better. I just feel better each week but I never know what the end point is.

    It is best to try and keep a routine, eat properly, sleep well, take naps if you need them, get some fresh air, try to do something you enjoy and don't feel guilty.

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