One worry to another

Hi all I am really struggling right now I'm under a huge amount of stress . I Go from ruminating over one worry , then fix that worry then I'm onto another. I'm in constant tears I'm exhausted and feel so trapped. It's been going on a long time now and I just can't snap out of it ! It's no way to live , all I want to do is lay I  bed all day and the only thing i look forward to is bed time as my night time meds knock me out and when I'm knocked out I can't worry. I have suicidal thoughts everyday. My husband has booked a holiday for us soon I'm hanging on for that as I know I'd ruin their holiday if I left this planet. However when we get back I'll be off. Its no life .

  • Thanks stuart333 that's a good idea I'll give that a go x

  • Are you able to write your worries down? Sometimes it helps to see them in black and white. By writing them down it forces you to think them through and give a name to them, then they are more specific.

    This will help if you talk to someone. If you can't say them out loud you can show them the piece of paper. You can get a second opinion on them. Maybe the items can be prioritised, or you can work out timescales or break them into smaller pieces that don't seem so bad. Maybe some small bits can be outsourced.

    If you have a plan it will seem more under control, all the weight will not  be on you. There will be less to worry about.

    Also you can then look at them during a good period of the day and see if they are really as bad as you think.

    There will be something that will help.

  • Hi Purplemoon2008,

    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We understand from your post that you are experiencing suicidal thoughts. It is good that you are letting us know what’s how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.     

    We can see that you have had some helpful advice and support from other Online Community users. We wanted to remind you of the support services we posted on your previous thread 'Confused'.

    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm:https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help 

    We hope this is helpful to you.

    Best Wishes,

    Rosie Mod

  • Thanks lotus that's a good idea I will x

  • Please talk to your GP about how you are feeling. Also, think about what changes in your life you could make to help you feel better, and ask your husband for support in making those changes.

    I hope things improve for you soon.

  • What happens if you take few days sick, to get yourself a breathing space?

  • Trapped by being in this cycle of worry and thoughts I just can't escape. I can't reduce the stress as its all out of my hands. I've asked for help but I've been rejected. I'd like the wand to make the worries go over my head and disappear! They help me sleep its definitely quality sleep . However I don't feel they help my low mood. But I can't sleep without them  x

  • I'm sorry you feel this way.

    You say you feel trapped. In what way, by your thoughts and worries? By the stress?

    How can you quickly reduce the stress? Are there any easy things you can change, no matter how small. Can you ask for help, even if just for a day.

    What would need to change in your life to not feel trapped? If someone could wave a magic wand what wish would it be performing?

    Are you sure the meds are really helping? Is it quality sleep? Can you talk to someone?