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I am very tearful today so I looked through the forums here and I don’t resonate with anyone else’s posts which makes me feel worse! I am exceptionally sensitive to sound at the moment and want to shut myself away from everyone and everything IRL but I also have a real problem with spelling and/or grammar mistakes: I won’t use a shop or restaurant if they have notices or menus with mistakes (please don’t think I’m perfect in this regard myself - I will berate myself for days afterwards if I slip up) and this means I can’t always finish reading some of the posts! I can’t maintain friendships because I don’t do small talk and once we have exhausted all topics of conversation (usually this is just moaning about our respective work), what’s the point? So that’s my messed up life, how are you doing today?

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  • Hi. I have the same issue with sound, also smell. I find it difficult to tolerate eating noises normally, however that gets worse when I'm heading for a meltdown. The world also smells of dog poo and wet gloss paint when I'm getting stressed (I struggle with trains for this reason).

    I also have synesthesia, I see music in colour. So rhythmic sound triggers that. I get a really strong emotional response to music so am often found eyes streaming with tears walking down the road.

    I spent three days last week having and recovering from a meltdown at work, pretty much cried constantly throughout that time. I'm mentioning this because afterwards I talked to the team I work with about what they might spot in the future before it all goes visibly wrong. One of them is spelling and grammar. I'm not being pedantic, both have a pattern to me and if that is off it really grates.

    I'm learning that the differing combinations of autistic traits we each have is open to huge variation, and they're all autism. Some info-dump, others can mimic small talk with apparent ease. Not something I can do and also find myself wondering what the point is. Some of us are high masking, others wear their autism on their sleeve. 

    I've not found a mirror image of my constellation of autistic-ness here but I hear very familiar themes in other people's comments.

    I hope you feel a bit steadier soon.

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  • Hi. I have the same issue with sound, also smell. I find it difficult to tolerate eating noises normally, however that gets worse when I'm heading for a meltdown. The world also smells of dog poo and wet gloss paint when I'm getting stressed (I struggle with trains for this reason).

    I also have synesthesia, I see music in colour. So rhythmic sound triggers that. I get a really strong emotional response to music so am often found eyes streaming with tears walking down the road.

    I spent three days last week having and recovering from a meltdown at work, pretty much cried constantly throughout that time. I'm mentioning this because afterwards I talked to the team I work with about what they might spot in the future before it all goes visibly wrong. One of them is spelling and grammar. I'm not being pedantic, both have a pattern to me and if that is off it really grates.

    I'm learning that the differing combinations of autistic traits we each have is open to huge variation, and they're all autism. Some info-dump, others can mimic small talk with apparent ease. Not something I can do and also find myself wondering what the point is. Some of us are high masking, others wear their autism on their sleeve. 

    I've not found a mirror image of my constellation of autistic-ness here but I hear very familiar themes in other people's comments.

    I hope you feel a bit steadier soon.

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