Never happy

Hi Purplemoon2008,

Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. I am sorry to hear that you are experiencing a lack of joy and feel this is impacting on the relationship with your family. I have also seen in your reply to another community member that you suffer from suicidal thoughts. It is good that you’ve let us know what’s happening. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.   

If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.

The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm: www.autism.org.uk/.../urgent-help.

If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: www.nhs.uk/.../.

You may also find the following useful:

Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. 

Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393 for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday)  

SANEline: 0300 304 7000 for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day) 

Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM): for men 0800 58 58 58, (5pm to midnight every day).  

Shout 85258: a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.

I hope this is helpful to you.

Kind regards

Gina Mod

thanks profdanger yes that is probably a good shout . Sorry to here that happend to you x

I can’t offer medical advice, but it might be a good idea to let your GP know if you are dropping one of your medications. Depending on the drug, your GP might want you to wean off of it rather than just quit it.

Just thought I’d mention it because I recently had a bad experience quitting a drug without notifying my psychologist. I wish I had .

Thanks for your reply guys. I'm not sure if it's burn out or not . I have a mental health condition that requires me to take medication to stop me getting too high or too low for the last 15 uears. I'm not diagnosed with autisim but it makes sense more than the mood disorder. I believe I was alot more happy before the meds . I'm stopping one of my mood stabilisers tonight and will give it a while and see if things improve. I really appreciate your replies and good tips . It helps knowing that I'm not the only one who feels like this . I keel thinking I shouldn't bother with a autisim diagnosis however it may help me make sense of the way I feel ...I mean perhaps I have no mental health issues at all and it's just autism . However I suffer alot with suicidal thoughts I have my whole life. X

Hi, Could you be burnt-out? and extremely exhausted? The reason I ask is because I used to feel like this and I felt like it for years. And I think for me it was burnout and exhaustion which built up over years and years and years - so much so that I didn't realise there could be any other way- and it's not like I hadn't had time off - I took a break from my studies etc but somehow I wasn't properly resting. I've recently made a huge change in my life and I am in environment where I feel more safe to look after my needs and I am still nowhere near recovered and it has been almost a year now but I do notice that I have moments where I feel joy again - I think before everything in life just took such a huge huge effort and it just made me not enjoy or want to do anything- on top of that injuries have been stopping me from doing the outdoor activities I like for years. I was so far gone into a state of burnout that I didn't know there could be another way. Obviously I don't know you or your circumstances, but could you be burntout? Also maybe those activities are just not for you? I stopped pushing myself to do a lot of things that I used to make myself do out of politeness or because I thought they were normal or things people did to feel happy- but I am becoming more selfish here- I still often do things I probably shouldn't because of other's expectations etc but less so. This might be unrelated to your issue. I don't know. But I just want you to know that I used to feel that way and it lasted for years - I couldn't even remember when I last felt happy, and it got better- it really did- I didn't believe it ever would but it has- though it did require a lot of changes in terms of how I go about life - the main thing is to really prioritise what you need, prioritise sleep and rest and maybe if you don't feel like going for the walk, just don't go and see what happens- you can always push yourself again but maybe try a different approach? I don't know but it seems like at the moment it is not working well for you, but you can maybe find a way of being that does work. 

I feel the same, sometimes i have OK days that are not so bad, and others i just want to stay in all the time. i know what you mean about the medication, it never really done much for me either. my family actually live in a village, so there are loads of places they like walking their dog, trails and grassland, i don't mind going for the odd walk and its mostly level. i like one of the trails where they have a watch tower at the end, i like going up there sometimes to look out over the lake, especially on a nice day. i prefer my peace and quiet as well, there is a point to your existence, i feel that way a lot too, i always think the same thing about mine and wonder why i am here, and it does effect my relationship with my family as well at points, so your not alone.