- I cant remember the last time I felt joy or happiness, no medication helps me . I'm miserable I just can't find joy in anything. My family enjoy going for walks in the countryside I cant think of anything worse especially when there's hills on the walk. I just had a real grumpy tantrum whilst we were walking I demanded to go back to the car! I'm never interested in anything else they like either like cycling or paddle bording I would rather be at home sleeping in my bedroom in peace and quiet. I feel like there's no point to my miserable existence and I just ruin my relationship with them.