Hello, I'm a woman, 31 years old, I'm not diagnosed yet but on the waiting list for half a year (after waiting about 2 years to get put on the waiting list but that's another story)
I'm coming to the end of a level 3 apprenticeship and am being faced with joblessness
The last time I had to search for jobs I had a breakdown which interestingly is what led to me getting referred for autism assessment
I really cannot cope with trying to sell myself on job applications
It feels like an invisible wall stopping me when I think about what to write about myself on a CV
I'm not sure if it's the severe lack of self esteem I have in combination with the autism making me very averse to anything which feels like lies, but I assume this is it.
I don't know how to get help from anyone who would actually understand, I work at a very fancy, respected organisation where everyone has their business together. Ironically hiring apprentices was their attempt at increasing diversity.
I feel like I need therapy just to get through this but it's all so expensive and it's a lot of money to waste on someone you might not get on with, and then the awkwardness of telling them you don't want therapy from them. It's hard to bear.
I don't know what to do basically
Does anyone know any ACTUALLY affordable therapy in London aimed at adults in work
