Job search on top of work, I can't cope

Hello, I'm a woman, 31 years old, I'm not diagnosed yet but on the waiting list for half a year (after waiting about 2 years to get put on the waiting list but that's another story)

I'm coming to the end of a level 3 apprenticeship and am being faced with joblessness

The last time I had to search for jobs I had a breakdown which interestingly is what led to me getting referred for autism assessment

I really cannot cope with trying to sell myself on job applications

It feels like an invisible wall stopping me when I think about what to write about myself on a CV

I'm not sure if it's the severe lack of self esteem I have in combination with the autism making me very averse to anything which feels like lies, but I assume this is it.

I don't know how to get help from anyone who would actually understand, I work at a very fancy, respected organisation where everyone has their business together. Ironically hiring apprentices was their attempt at increasing diversity.

I feel like I need therapy just to get through this but it's all so expensive and it's a lot of money to waste on someone you might not get on with, and then the awkwardness of telling them you don't want therapy from them. It's hard to bear.

I don't know what to do basically

Does anyone know any ACTUALLY affordable therapy in London aimed at adults in work

  • Yeah, i worked retail for 5 years because jobs are so hard to find, that was the constant burnout which led to the breakdown when I left the job finally but then had to apply for more jobs

    Can't recommend retail for anyone autistic..

  • Annoyingly I work in science research so they're all competing for grants constantly

    Idk I should still ask my manager if they can ask the rest of the organisation if anyone has spare money...

  • Apparently there are step by step guides online to help with putting together a CV. Have you tried your local library - they can often point you to local help/services. It’s far from easy. My youngest is leaving education soon and we’re dreading any contact with job centres etc! 

  • Hello  

    I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with your job search. You might like to have a look at our employment pages, which include information and advice on looking for an applying for a job. We also have a webpage offering information and support on in your rights at work, dealing with bullying and interacting and coping at work 

    You can also find a free online ‘Finding Employment’ module on our website. This module is designed to help autistic job seekers entering the job market in understanding their strengths and what next steps they could take towards gaining meaningful employment or work. 

    Our Spectrum Live online series also features an episode discussing employment, this can be found here. 

    Evenbreak matches disabled job seekers with employers to build a diverse workforce. You can visit the Evenbreak website for listed job vacancies. 
     
    The British Association of Supported Employment (BASE), have a database of supported employment agencies, so you can search for one in your local area. 

    Maximus offer a range of employability programmes throughout the UK, Including, programmes for disabled people who are struggling to fine work. 

    Our current employment and volunteering opportunities with The National Autistic Society are listed on our vacancies page.  We particularly welcome applications from autistic people. 

    If you feel that you might need some support with your mental health, you can find advice and information on how to go about seeking help, including links to other resources and details of helplines and listening support services, here: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/seeking-help. 

    I hope this helps,

    ChloeMod

  • Ask HR at your current apprenticeship place if they can help.

    They know you, know what you have done and if they don't want to take you on they could help you get another job. There's no harm in asking.

    Otherwise you can try writing all your stuff down in  random order, and ask AI to create a CV from it.

    If you have some money you can pay people to help write it. But you have to give them something to work with first.

    Google for some templates as well.