Hi all,
I did not, in fact, get that essay turned in on time. Frankly, I have not gotten much turned in. My depression is full blast and my anxiety is following suit. My family is pulling me out of university for a semester, and while I think this is the right decision, I can't help but feel a bit ashamed. I know I need time to gather myself, get my head back on my shoulders and get some money in my pocket so I can hopefully move out next fall, but it's still rough to hear, and even rougher to deal with the constant criticism and judgement I will receive from my family. I'm not the first in my family to fail a term, but my family is quite judgmental, and I'm terrified of what happens if I enjoy work more than school. What will they think? How to tolerate six months of living at home, without my friends, with only my uptight parents to comment on my every move. I know they are here to support, but I still feel lost. I dragged myself out of rock bottom multiple times these past few months, and I don't want any mental progress I have made to go right back down the shitter.
Any advice? I know what I'm going to do, but I don't know how to feel and could use some support.
Love,
Max