I don't know if anybody else here gets this but I never seem to adjust to change. I know autistic people don't process change especially well but in my case no matter how big or small the changes are I never seem to grow accustomed to them. I've been here nearly 7 years and have posted very little, and in this time I have seen many names of members come and go, and I still think of the old members regularly and haven't got used to not seeing the original members I once knew. It's always nice seeing new faces but I still expect to see the originals.
And I lost my family in an accident almost 10 years ago and I haven't adjusted to this change either. Losing people I loved physically and emotionally has been the biggest change in my entire life and almost 10 years on and I don't think I've even processed this change yet. I don't know if I ever will. It feels like I know they are gone but I'm unable to accept this change and though I know it's happened, they are gone, my brain still expects to see and hear them.
Is this autism related? Not seeking medical advice on grief or mental health... Just want to know if anyone here has experienced this inability to handle change.
I have been seeing a therapist for some time but she's not very understanding regarding my autism so I might try and get a new therapist, one who has better knowledge on autism as I think my current is doing me more harm than good.
