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It don't make sense anymore.

West777

Hello there.

I am starting to believe that nothing makes sense as it used to (the world, me and everything in it.) I wonder if this is due to my autism.

I still feel at my age I am looking for a place of belonging and happiness.

I thought I was on a roll at higher education and it gave me sense of identity and belonging but it was only temporary and lasted a short while.

As I finished the course and the reality of living alone sinked in I noticed cultural, social differences it was a culture shock to me.

Fast forward 2-3 years up to now and I have lost touch with reality and living under a rock.

I am at risk of hitting my lowest point?

Nothing makes sense in terms of what I want to do in life and why I am here (alive.)

I believe my autism has impacted that I view this world way differently than other people. I.e how I interact with others.

What can I do regain touch with reality again.

  • in reply to purelambdaphi

    Where does on find belonging, it's not like you can go in a shop and buy it or order it on amazon?

  • I get it, if I have a role, I'm fine, I love being at uni, I had a purpose that was all about what I wanted to do, I was encouraged by interested and interesting people, I hated it when I had to leave, every september/october I still miss choosing my modules. Other humans are strange beasts, it's like we do the same things, but in totally different and opposing ways, I dont' know the answer to that, other than to be as self sufficient and contained as possible to reduce the need for them?

    For me, it that the world has changed so fast and in ways I was never good with, covid brought forward things that might have taken 10 years to happen naturally, like the increase in online shopping and the closure of so many real shops, smart this, that and the other, intutitive this, that and the other, which seems neither smart or intutitive, is confusing with no real alternative.

    I've just retreated back to the core things I enjoy, books, study, cooking and gardening and walking with my dog. I can't even find much worth watching on the telly anymore.

  • Finding belonging should lessen that feeling.

  • I get what you mean. Sometimes the support of a structured community and specific goals make life make sense when it otherwise would not. I don’t have any answers for you except to find something you care about, find a community or activity you can get involved in or even set one small goal at a time, make one small connection at a time until you form a network. Otherwise, please reach out for help. You matter and are worthy of help, no matter how you feel. We’re here to support you.