It don't make sense anymore.

Hello there.

I am starting to believe that nothing makes sense as it used to (the world, me and everything in it.) I wonder if this is due to my autism.

I still feel at my age I am looking for a place of belonging and happiness.

I thought I was on a roll at higher education and it gave me sense of identity and belonging but it was only temporary and lasted a short while.

As I finished the course and the reality of living alone sinked in I noticed cultural, social differences it was a culture shock to me.

Fast forward 2-3 years up to now and I have lost touch with reality and living under a rock.

I am at risk of hitting my lowest point?

Nothing makes sense in terms of what I want to do in life and why I am here (alive.)

I believe my autism has impacted that I view this world way differently than other people. I.e how I interact with others.

What can I do regain touch with reality again.

  • I get what you mean. Sometimes the support of a structured community and specific goals make life make sense when it otherwise would not. I don’t have any answers for you except to find something you care about, find a community or activity you can get involved in or even set one small goal at a time, make one small connection at a time until you form a network. Otherwise, please reach out for help. You matter and are worthy of help, no matter how you feel. We’re here to support you.

  • I am not sure whether you are saying that everything seemed to make sense up until you left higher education OR it never has made sense because you are autistic.

    I could speculate and say it is the former, and if so it may well be that the structure afforded by education does actually help a lot of Autistic people.  Once that is lost, when education is over, there is a sense of what happens now?  As if you're somehow left in the wilderness. 

    This can be daunting for many people though, and I do wonder if you were given appropriate support re careers and such whilst in Higher Education, or if it is worth pursuing some even now?  

    Of course I may have misread this and you may be talking about Adult Education - if so, did you have a career path to follow on completion of the course?  What's changed?  

    It does sound like the blanket answer to everything, but if you do feel you may have some underlying issues - other than Autism - that have manifested themselves - it may be an idea to speak to your GP or arrange some talking therapy to work things through with Primary Care.  Just a thought.