I started a new job in January and I’m loving it. It’s a job I’m genuinely passionate about and adore.
I got a message from a manager this morning that basically asked me if I would be free for a catchup about my 3 month probation tomorrow before my shift.
For context, I once had a job where they scheduled a probation meeting and then let me go so these sort of meetings or any meetings with managers make me very anxious.
Ever since I got this message I have been stuck in an anxiety spiral. I have convinced myself I’m being let go and I’m reading way too much into the message. For example, I thought my probation was 6 months so I have took from the 3 month mention that they are failing me after only 3 months.
I have spoken to my partner and he has reminded me of how much positive feedback I have been getting at my job and that it’s most likely a standard catchup to ensure I’m settling in alright and to see if I have any questions or concerns.
My partner also suggested that in my meeting I should request a reasonable accommodation about getting a summary of what meetings will be about beforehand as I do struggle with meetings being scheduled where I don’t know what the meeting entails. Because the contents are unknown, I tend to create scenarios in my head which causes issues.
I have a therapy session tomorrow so I’m going to ask my therapist for some advice, but I just wanted to have a rant and to see if anyone could relate.
