So Tired

I'm a 44 year old autistic woman and I'm struggling more then ever at the moment.  I'm so angry with myself that at my age I cannot hold a conversation.  I have a job and went out for lunch the other day with 5 colleagues who I have met a few times, conversation was flowing between them and I just sat there with nothing to say.  I could tell they thought I should be contributing and now I'm just angry at myself for being this way.

Sorry for the rant, I just can't cope.

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  • Hi I hope you feel better after venting. Don’t be too hard on yourself and don’t be angry with you for not being able to do this. I’m 21 and I have never successfully small talked with anybody! At school all the other girls used to chat and gossip about the latest music and fashion and I tried and just couldn’t do it.

    I used to be angry with myself but now I just take it in my stride.

    At work during meetings and after work dos I simply go mmm and yep, it’s a small way of interacting without really interacting. Shows an interest without all the hassle and stress of actually chatting.

    I wish people would converse digitally, like on forums like this, I would be a lot better at it then!

    Trust me you aren’t alone, don’t be too hard on yourself. I really hope you feel better now.

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  • Hi I hope you feel better after venting. Don’t be too hard on yourself and don’t be angry with you for not being able to do this. I’m 21 and I have never successfully small talked with anybody! At school all the other girls used to chat and gossip about the latest music and fashion and I tried and just couldn’t do it.

    I used to be angry with myself but now I just take it in my stride.

    At work during meetings and after work dos I simply go mmm and yep, it’s a small way of interacting without really interacting. Shows an interest without all the hassle and stress of actually chatting.

    I wish people would converse digitally, like on forums like this, I would be a lot better at it then!

    Trust me you aren’t alone, don’t be too hard on yourself. I really hope you feel better now.

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