Weight Loss and Depression

Hi Wave tone1 it’s been a while since I posted but I thought I would post now since I need your help and support.

I’ve been fed up with my weight and I wanted to make a change. So on the 28th of March I started this coaching with a woman call Liv from LivWell. Everything is great, you can eat the things you love and she concentrates on Cals, Fat, Carbs & Protein. I felt like this was a great fit for me (being autistic), but today I was speaking to my mum and brother and even though they are supporting me they are also worried and told me to be careful.

With LivWell you sign up on the website, answer all these questions. You then speak to a member of the team to understand everything etc.
You pay £30 fee to start as well as £120 for a month. I thought this was a great deal, but after speaking with my mum and brother (who has done something similar) I now have doubts…

I can’t cancel my subscription until I have done 4 months (it says in the contract), so I’m stuck with them for another 3 months. But just working out the ingredients I bought and a protein powder I bought, I have already spent £222.04 SobSob.

All I want to do is lose weight so bad SobSob and even though Liv is understanding and she has chosen foods that I would like, I just feel depressed right now. I was fine when I started but now I feel like I will have no money to get ingredients for some of the meals SobSob.

I just don’t know what to do anymore, I love food but I also don’t want to spend a fortune. But I just don’t understand how to lose weight it’s just confusing to my autistic brain especially when it comes to cooking. I’m 30 for christs sake and I can’t do the simpler adult things SobSob x

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  • I put on lots of weight when I was in my late twenties, lost it all in my thirties and then put it all back on again in my late thirties and early forties. I asked myself why this was happening and realised that for me fat is armour, whenever I feel that I'm being squeezed by the expectations of others and not allowed to take up the space I need in th world mentally and emotionally I put on weight so as I physically take up the space. When I feel respected and not pushed and squashed by others the weight just seems to disapear, I do eat les too of course. My trigger for this is being in a relationship, I realised everytime I've got in a relationship I put weight on, when I'm exiting a relationship or I'm single I lose the weight and not because I eat rubbish, but I feel less pressure to conform to someone elses dietry needs.

    I wodner what other peoples weight loss/gain triggers are?

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  • I put on lots of weight when I was in my late twenties, lost it all in my thirties and then put it all back on again in my late thirties and early forties. I asked myself why this was happening and realised that for me fat is armour, whenever I feel that I'm being squeezed by the expectations of others and not allowed to take up the space I need in th world mentally and emotionally I put on weight so as I physically take up the space. When I feel respected and not pushed and squashed by others the weight just seems to disapear, I do eat les too of course. My trigger for this is being in a relationship, I realised everytime I've got in a relationship I put weight on, when I'm exiting a relationship or I'm single I lose the weight and not because I eat rubbish, but I feel less pressure to conform to someone elses dietry needs.

    I wodner what other peoples weight loss/gain triggers are?

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