3 Good Things (again)

I will have to make a decision soon. I can’t say in fairness I have been treated badly at work, at least in my current company. I’m just not up to working in my current job in my case. I was pretty much living just to work which after my  discovery just wasn’t right. Hopefully time to look at something new or maybe retire? If it’s a virtual drink surely you can have an alcoholic version? 

https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/13623613241236110 Taking a look at this one. 

1. My friend had his appointment, in Drumahoe, then got his repeat porescription of medication injections, in town, before getting his fortnightly medication injection; this afternoon.

2. I had a series of calamaties; which, in the divine synchronicity, became blessings.

3. Washing on, now.

Hi. Thank you. It's good to hear from you. It's hard for me to know whether to say 'go for it' or 'take care' Because, it's always more complcated than that, I feel. I am lucky in my situation in that I have the choice about my job. And also it is an easier choice to make, because I have been so very miserable there. I hope that things work out for you too. And for all the 'us'es posting over the forum about how awful, Autistic poeple, can be treated in work. Raising a glass of a virtual non-alcoholic gin and tonic to you. xx

I’m thinking about calling it a day, just need to find my brave head. Hope things work out for you

1. I'm going to take voluntary redundancy, so my aged 20s work colleagues get a little longer in the brave new workplace that is AI

2. I'm going to leave, knowing it's the right thing to do and the right thing for me too.

3. I feel really calm about deciding to do this and feel postitive about re-looking at the next steps in finding more work.

1. My cleaner arrived at 8:45 am, today, and I woke up at 7:30 am; a miracle.

2. Went to Portglenone Monastery, this afternoon, for confession.

3. Staying at my Artist friend's, overnight, as he has a long-distance appointment; tomorrow morning.

1. Got back from a difficult day out, in Belfast, today.

2. Left my front and back doors unlocked; for my cleaner coming, tomorrow morning.

3. Plan to listen to some Tragically Hip songs, tonight; as today was Canada Day.

1. Feeling soothed by the new Lewis Capaldi song

2. Getting through another day

3. Thinking I just need to get through another day at work, and then another.

1. Listened to a Podcast Interview, on Spotify, last night.

2. Visited the Old Protestant Couple; I visit every Monday Afternoon.

3. Finally got the washing machine filter back in, again, after she wouldn't go in before.

Today so a tough one. Actually I’m thinking I may need to leave where I live and start again (will be seeking advise on this one!). 

- I stood up for myself.

Warning - rant/story

A friend of my daughters stayed over last night. I told the kids I’d take them to McDonalads if they got up /dressed we could walk down at 9am. Suggested several times and was ignored (rude!),  and really. So, boundary set they didn’t get to go (we didn’t have time). 

the Mum came to collect. I said no McDonalds. She agreed. I then caught her with my daughtr and hers there 5 mins later (I’m not a stalker was there validly - too long to explain).

I felt it was totally deceptive, she lied to me, and encouraged my daughter to go along…when I said no - not ok. Torallt undermined me as a parent and said it’s ok to do what you want. The woman’s a cop. 

i addressed it with her well, explaining why it wasn’t ok with me, and that I’d rather she have said she wanted to take them rather than just agree with me, then go against that

I’m really quite outraged and don’t and my child hanging out with her / her daughter. It’s a really tough one from a parenting perspective. But boy, was I the mature one not letting myself feel/be walked over without saying something (old style)

- went to Kent today and enjoyed a walk. Wiped me out (people wise) but was good

- bought myself an iced latte

1. Used the Dishwasher, this afternoon.

2. Went to Holland and Barrett, and Dunne's, in the same Mall.

3. Spuds growing REALLY well; now.

1. I let go (so far) to something I can't change.

2. I thought about my options as looks like I'll lose my job to AI

3. I'm managing to function with chronic insomnia.

Thank you Roy I really appreciate that. It’s been an exhausting week but at the same time it’s a relief. I’m just wiped out from it all and have little energy left. 

1. Friday

2. Raspberries 

3. Holidays on the horizon 

1. Back home, now.

2. Collected the £25, from the local GAA Lotto; someone else matched three numbers, this week.

3. Listened to the LP reissue of The Queen is Dead; gift for my birthday.

Congratulations, I have been thinking of you.

today I give myself permission to exist and own a tiny bit of space. 

I give myself permission to be authentic.

I give myself permission to not 'please'

1, Had my assessment on Monday 

2, Had a further assessment after my informants interview 

3, I was put out of my misery and got my diagnosis of autism at 11:48am yesterday 

1. Getting a new bike soon!

2. Tried cooking a new Chinese recipe that my family have not had before, they all liked it.

3. I’m getting better with social skills and not feeling bad about myself all the time