It's my Birthday soon, and societal norms suggest it's a "significant one", but I don't care! I've never been fussed about birthdays. To be honest I don't understand them, I don't get what you're supposed to do, I find getting presents slightly embarrassing and any sort of attention is just triggering.For many months I have been saying I don't want to celebrate or really even acknowledge it, and I thought people understood and respected that.
However, this past weekend I went out with a group of "friends" and as far as I was aware it was just a standard night out that this particular group does every so often. I'm always hyper-sensitive when I go out, but it soon became apparent that the group was aware my birthday was coming up as a few under the breath and cryptic comments were made. This immediately put me one edge, but I ignored them and carried on. Later on though we were sat in a restaurant, the comments carried on and then from out of the blue the staff broke into a rendition of "Happy Birthday to you" Queue stifled panic attack, with all the trimmings, before I realised that it was for another table.
What really annoyed me though is that these so called friends found my reaction very funny and were laughing out loud at my reaction. I managed to get to the end of the meal, but then went home, while everyone else went on to the pub. The annoying thing is is that when I have stifled a panic attack like that it stay with me for days, so now my anxiety is quite high and i'm playing the events over and over in my head.
Just wandered if anyone else is the same about Birthdays or am I being ridiculous.
