Autism and Attachments

I've been like this all my life. I don't know if it's to do with our autism or anxious attachments. I'm straight, female, and I've been like it with female friends if I feel a connection, and also every boyfriend. I know it's not healthy, in my case, because I've always felt overwhelming anxiety when I'm not with them, or if they don't reply to texts. I obsess about them. I prefer to be by myself these days, or I should say, I'm more calm when I am. 

It might be for some autistic people but if it is then it's not something I have. I try to get more attached to people, especially those around me, but I struggle being with people. I spend most of my time on my own as being with others causes a lot of anxiety. Like A I have to force myself and put in a lot of effort to stay around people and keep in touch with them.

Look up 'limerence'. Sounds like what you're describing. People with autism are more prone to it so not necessarily an autism trait but something we may be more likely to experience.

I‘m not sure if it‘s an autism specific thing but I relate to this a bit with some relationships in my life so you‘re not alone !!

All I can say is that I do not have this attachment style.

When people aren’t around or leave my life - or worse, die - I largely don’t think about them at all. I have to make a conscious and deliberate effort to maintain contact.