I am really struggling with my life my mental health has plummeted and I’m really struggling. I’m not eating or sleeping I keep messing things up with my friend we arguing all the time and things are going from bad to worse. Can’t get any work with the agency I’m working for and during one of my autism groups I walked out and had a staff member chase after me luckily she never caught up with me. I keep wanting to end things I’ve picked out what funeral I want and the songs power of love Frankie goes to Hollywood, before you go by Lewis capaldi and Highway to Hell by AC/DC. But I can’t do I’m to scared I keep thinking what would happen to my dog and what if I’m not found in time she would die from starvation and just because I’m suffering why should she suffer she just a sweet innocent old dog. I don’t want to lose my friend I want to go out to work and I want to live but my life is so hard I can’t go on I’m tired and fed up and I feel like what the point. I want to be with my mum at peace and all my suffering would end but I physically cannot kill myself I’m a coward to much of a coward to live to much of one to die. I pray that my suffering will end and for god to take it away but it continues and only gets worse.
