How do you perceive how others perceive you, vs how they do actually see you?

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I kind of perceive myself to others as a shadow. You know when Frodo puts the ring of power on? That's how i view and see in life. Almost like a ghost really....I started to think what people may feel like after a conversation with myself. Being in my presence. I think i would feel abit like......'whoaaah, something IS OFF with this guy!!!' Lol it's funny because I've never had a sense of 'myself' before really.

But, I wore a mask to kind of protect myself. 'Dont think about what other people think of you'......That was my mantra because no people cared about. I was unlovable (both untrue)....and boy did i care what others felt about me. All the goddam time.

Anyway, as i open up abit more. I can see how others can see me a little bit more.

Anyone else have similar thoughts? Or am i nuts lol

Parents
  • I usually think of myself as incomplete. Dunno exactly in which sense (not phisically, that´s for sure), but kind of like my personality is half done or something. Sometimes I think people hate me, or despise me. Other times, they just give me that look, that make me feel like a freak. And I am just doing my best to act normal, so it is unsettling everytime.

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  • I usually think of myself as incomplete. Dunno exactly in which sense (not phisically, that´s for sure), but kind of like my personality is half done or something. Sometimes I think people hate me, or despise me. Other times, they just give me that look, that make me feel like a freak. And I am just doing my best to act normal, so it is unsettling everytime.

Children
  • Im similar mate. I know that look as well lol.....Almost like when you are trying to speak a foreign language and the native speakers are like, eh? I didnt feel incomplete personality wise, i used to think i was 'defected'.....but birds of a deather flock together and unfortunately......we are vwry difficult to work out and be around socially sometimes