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How do you perceive how others perceive you, vs how they do actually see you?

IndigoMandala

So, 

I kind of perceive myself to others as a shadow. You know when Frodo puts the ring of power on? That's how i view and see in life. Almost like a ghost really....I started to think what people may feel like after a conversation with myself. Being in my presence. I think i would feel abit like......'whoaaah, something IS OFF with this guy!!!' Lol it's funny because I've never had a sense of 'myself' before really.

But, I wore a mask to kind of protect myself. 'Dont think about what other people think of you'......That was my mantra because no people cared about. I was unlovable (both untrue)....and boy did i care what others felt about me. All the goddam time.

Anyway, as i open up abit more. I can see how others can see me a little bit more.

Anyone else have similar thoughts? Or am i nuts lol

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  • I have posted similar things many times on here.

    When I’m out in the world I feel as if I’m literally invisible or as if I’m watching events from afar, a parallel dimension or something similar.

    One of the things I remembered in therapy - I went through uni completely alone, no friends, studied alone, attended lectures alone, had lunch alone. Then in my final year I had to use a new computer lab and it wasn’t obvious how to activate the computers. One of my fellow students - who I had observed for years but never interacted with - noticed my difficulty and told me how to switch it on. I was shocked - I wanted to say “You can see me?”

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    I think it seems to be quite common in alot of people. The barriers for myself were almost impossible to stike up conversations and then mental blankness if people did speak. There were odd exceptions were i had people approach me and take their time but mainly, like you said. I felt like an oberving shadow person in a high anxiety state hoping no one actually drew attention to myself. Dressed in black or camo gear for extra invisibility lol

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  • in reply to Deleted User

    I think it seems to be quite common in alot of people. The barriers for myself were almost impossible to stike up conversations and then mental blankness if people did speak. There were odd exceptions were i had people approach me and take their time but mainly, like you said. I felt like an oberving shadow person in a high anxiety state hoping no one actually drew attention to myself. Dressed in black or camo gear for extra invisibility lol

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