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What confirmed your own autism suspicions?

Violetfred

Hello, I am very new to all this, so please forgive any faux-pa's I make regarding post-etiquette. 

I am awaiting autism  diagnosis on the NHS. I have read up extensively on the classic signs, but I am curious what specifically confirmed it for you.¹ I have made many analogies to people over the years, as I have struggled to find a cause for what I believe is behind my decades-long battle with anxiety and depression. I am 52 years old

It is like you are walking around in a big spacesuit. You can perform basic tasks but are unable to interact with people on an intimate level. They see you, but are unaware you are in this suit. It's frustrating, as you can see people living their lives, while you can only watch. 

This is the best description of how I feel and it is a desperately lonely place to be. I often contemplate the point of it all when It seems an impossible problem to conquer in an ever increasingly complicated world.

Apologies for the ramble, but it would be nice to know I'm not alone.

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  • I spent over 50 years knowing nothing about autism and never seeing a link to me. I’ve always known I’m different but just didn’t know why?

    In the end you just believe you are fussy or shy, whatever that means. A lifetime of people telling you not to be like that doesn’t help. 

    I was working alone in my workshop as usual, a radio station presenter was interviewing two autistic people and asking them how autism affects their lives, all of a sudden my life made sense, about 80% of what they said was me. It was by complete accident that I had listened to the radio article. 
    I couldn’t continue working, the research started immediately, I listen to a lot of audiobooks by autistic authors, some lines stuck with me of always feeling on the outside and looking in, knowing you don’t belong. Still little pieces of the puzzle occasionally fall into place. So for me it was that one event that started it but no one thing that confirmed it. Many things then confirmed it and still do.

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  • I spent over 50 years knowing nothing about autism and never seeing a link to me. I’ve always known I’m different but just didn’t know why?

    In the end you just believe you are fussy or shy, whatever that means. A lifetime of people telling you not to be like that doesn’t help. 

    I was working alone in my workshop as usual, a radio station presenter was interviewing two autistic people and asking them how autism affects their lives, all of a sudden my life made sense, about 80% of what they said was me. It was by complete accident that I had listened to the radio article. 
    I couldn’t continue working, the research started immediately, I listen to a lot of audiobooks by autistic authors, some lines stuck with me of always feeling on the outside and looking in, knowing you don’t belong. Still little pieces of the puzzle occasionally fall into place. So for me it was that one event that started it but no one thing that confirmed it. Many things then confirmed it and still do.

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