Imposter syndrome

Can anybody else relate to imposter syndrome ? After referrals and meetings / assessments with medical people who diagnosed me , it was still in the back of my mind that I’m making it up or something. All my life I’ve masked so well so it conflicted with me . I’m getting better at it now but wondered if anyone else had similar experiences ?

  • I have ups and downs although I’ve only recently received a referral. I have days when I just know I’m autistic, days when I strongly doubt it and days when I’m drained if this roller coaster and regret that I even know about autism and wish I kept living in my own world and with my sweet ignorance although this site helped me a lot and the awareness helped me find a job that is more suitable for me. But it can never be just good to relax.

  • I’m not officially diagnosed and am currently trying to make peace with the thought that I might never get the chance to get assessed. This lack of certainty only fuels my imposter syndrome even though it would make no sense for me to make this up since I’m not getting anything out of it. Nonetheless, especially when I’m feeling stressed, overwhelmed and unable to do the things that are expected of me, I’m thinking that all my suspicions and efforts to understand my brain are just some weird justification for being lazy and dumb.
    This forum is the first time I’m connecting with others who are autistic (diagnosed or not) or think they might be. This is helping me a lot.

  • Hi, yes - many of us have experienced this, including me. Being on this forum helped.

  • Hi and welcome to the community!

    It's common for us - especially as late-diagnosed adults - to experience imposter syndrome; I certainly have, too.

    You might find this resource helpful. It includes an example of someone else discussing their experience of imposter syndrome, along with a link to their related website article:

    NAS - How will I feel after receiving an autism diagnosis