Hello all,
A bit of late night self reflection. I'm not very articulate.
I keep having low mood dips now and then. Feeling overall loneliness and seclusion. So I go out and re-connect with old friends, new friends and ect... But, once this mood wares off, I just go about my life and have no interest at all in any kind of interaction. I've got a partner whom I live with, but it feels different with them? I never grow tired of them and always want to make an effort. But I cannot find this same attitude to anyone else. I feel bad but not even towards my family.
Even friends whom I'm really close with. I just feel this great sense of drain whenever I try.
The thought of having a close knit group of friends, who I drink, craft, hike and go out with sounds amazing! But in practice it just seems exhausting. I dont really know how to describe it, but I just feel alienated and have this deep feeling of 'I just havent found the right group yet'.
Does anyone else struggle with these feelings?
I feel like it doesnt help that my interests don't really allign with anyone my age. Most people my own age just seem like... Dull and ambitionless? Like I said, not articulate.
