Hi everyone. I've just joined and would like to say hi.

My name is Thomas. I've ended up being very aggarophobic and It seems to be getting worse as I get older. I've been messed about through my life and always treated as there's something wrong with me. This year I've been out the house about 15 times and most of those have been to take the black bin bags of rubbish I've accumulated for weeks/ sometimes months before I build up the courage to get out my front door. I don't know any of my neighbours (6 houses are above my house) and I've lived here for 5 years. I've heard my neighbours say I'm anti social and not normal when they've been discussing me in the landing. I've always found it very difficult to interperate written directions, and general talk I find it vey diffucult to understand what something is telling me in writing as it seems not specific or could mean multiple things. I keep my curtains closed at all times, even in summer. and I always only have a small low illuminating light. on, that would seem dark to most people. I don't like bright lighting.  My nephew has quite bad asbergers syndrome, and I see a lot of his traits in myself and his dad (my brother)  This is the first time I've thought to look on the internet for a chat room for people on the autism spectrum. I'd just like to say hi to everyone and thanks for this site being here.

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  • Hello Thomas, and welcome to this place.

    I am happy for you finding us here and I can reassure you that, even if you have been "falling back" in your world and your mood for a while...........these things can be arrested, and then reversed.  It does take time, and it isn't easy......but it is achievable.  Change is the key.....but "change" is very hard for many of us here!

    You write with honesty and clarity = This is a MASSIVE head-start !  The things you write about will have massive resonance with many people here, and they certainly chime loudly with various portions and periods of my life.....and indeed, my current in some regards.

    Stick around, and see what happens.

  • Hi Number, and thank you for your kind words. I think I've lost all of my confidence, and I've always had low self esteem and I don't like to be a burden on anyone. I think this combination, on top of my undiagnosed conditions, have directed the path I find myself on. I fully intend to stick around on here. Just to hear other folks with similar stories to mine, is overwhelming me with emotions. I think, as I get used to talking about myself with you all, It will be the best help I've ever had. My head is barraged with so much to try to say that it's giving me a slight headache. I know this place is going to help me come to terms with my conditions and being able to talk to all you great people is like finding an oasis in the desert. I'm very scared and sad at the moment and feel vulnerable talking about myself, but I'm going to do my best to learn about myself and I appreciate all you folks reaching out to me with such such kind and educating words and support.

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  • Hi Number, and thank you for your kind words. I think I've lost all of my confidence, and I've always had low self esteem and I don't like to be a burden on anyone. I think this combination, on top of my undiagnosed conditions, have directed the path I find myself on. I fully intend to stick around on here. Just to hear other folks with similar stories to mine, is overwhelming me with emotions. I think, as I get used to talking about myself with you all, It will be the best help I've ever had. My head is barraged with so much to try to say that it's giving me a slight headache. I know this place is going to help me come to terms with my conditions and being able to talk to all you great people is like finding an oasis in the desert. I'm very scared and sad at the moment and feel vulnerable talking about myself, but I'm going to do my best to learn about myself and I appreciate all you folks reaching out to me with such such kind and educating words and support.

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