We are thinking of moving house, we have the opportunity to design our home to our specifications. I've spent months checking out every little detail and now is the time to make our decision I'm finding it so hard. My gut feeling is telling me it's the best move. We will be mortgage free (I'm 43) we will be over £1000 a month better off, it's a quiet, private estate in the country but near to amenities. When you drive on it feels like you are away from all the hustle and bustle of live but I'm thinking of everything that could go wrong. Neighbours, dogs barking, it won't be what I imagine, I don't need to worry about children because they can't live on there. I think it's all the stress of everything, the move, the packing, going through all the paperwork, designing the home. Now other things are worrying me, me dying alone if my partner dies before me, when you're dead you are gone forever it scares me, illness. I could go on forever. I have schizoaffective Disorder and I'm waiting for an autism assessment. Is this autism or my mental illness creeping in. I know it's normal to worry etc but I'm not sure what I'm experiencing is a normal level of worry
