At the moment I'm about 85% sure I'll never attempt romantic relationships or all the stuff that comes with it. Mostly from knowing I'm deficient in social, emotional and adult skills plus nobody really makes me feel a spark nor vice versa.
Though it's constantly on my mind like my mind hasn't fully accepted it.
Also I'm fed up with cut and paste platitudes and soothing statements which invalidate those feelings like it's wrong to feel bad.