Autistic 'lightbulb moments'

Since your diagnosis/self realisation, have you had times in your life when suddenly you realise why you did something in the past ie because of your autism.

There have been many for me, but recently the hair cutting thread made me realise why I hated hairdressers so much even though everyone else I knew seemed to look forward to going.

I was the only person in my 30s I knew to have a mobile hairdresser come to my house - it seemed to be older people or those with mobility problems who went for this service.

Have you had moments when everything clicks into place/another piece of the puzzle of your past?

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  • I have quite a lot but don‘t want to be typing out all day so will mention my most noteable one which is one with my routines. I had to do certain things on certain days like I would have a meal plan for specific days like Mondays I would always have pasta for tea or curry on Wednesday or in other aspects of life I would have to wash my hair on specific days. If this routine was broken I would get very upset and withdraw and get moody. Only after speaking to my neurotypical friends I realised this was quite odd and most people didn’t abide by these strict routines lol 

  • I suffered in school trips for three reasons - bullies, noise and broken routine. I cried in the bus and soothed myself by stimming and repeating myself - it’s ok, everything will be fine, tomorrow we have classes, everything will go back to normal. All other kids were happy we had no classes only I cried and desperately wanted to have them. Often I felt uncomfortable and would shut down and dissociate till the end of this week because the routine was broken. It took me a lot of time to become a bit more flexible - it was expected of me. But still struggling with changes. 

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  • I suffered in school trips for three reasons - bullies, noise and broken routine. I cried in the bus and soothed myself by stimming and repeating myself - it’s ok, everything will be fine, tomorrow we have classes, everything will go back to normal. All other kids were happy we had no classes only I cried and desperately wanted to have them. Often I felt uncomfortable and would shut down and dissociate till the end of this week because the routine was broken. It took me a lot of time to become a bit more flexible - it was expected of me. But still struggling with changes. 

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