Since your diagnosis/self realisation, have you had times in your life when suddenly you realise why you did something in the past ie because of your autism.
There have been many for me, but recently the hair cutting thread made me realise why I hated hairdressers so much even though everyone else I knew seemed to look forward to going.
I was the only person in my 30s I knew to have a mobile hairdresser come to my house - it seemed to be older people or those with mobility problems who went for this service.
Have you had moments when everything clicks into place/another piece of the puzzle of your past?