I get this, i struggle to feel wanted, accepted, part of anything. Even when I know I am, I still have an inner conflicted view which can spil any sense of belonging for me.
Recently looked up RSD after it being mentioned that I show all the signs, I think that explains a lot. Possibly trying too hard go fit in and avoid rejection to just go with it. But the root cause in my opinion is a combination of knowing I'm different, having low self esteem , over analysing everything and often reading negative into things, catastrophising and so on.
I always felt like I was watching the herd from a distance and when I was amongst it I was somehow aware of it rather than part of it, like I was tuned into a hidden frequency, if that makes any sense at all?!!
i struggle to feel wanted, accepted, part of anything.
Long before my diagnosis I found it worked for me to do a job that got me regular appreciation, social contact and low expectations of ongoing social interaction.
I worked in IT support so got to do a lot of deskside visits in various banks head offices over the years where I learned my craft and could fix almost everything there at the time.
I found that positive contact with the staff would get the occasional invite (especially when I saved their bacon following user stupidity) to social events or - on occasions - get a date. Several longish term relationships formed this way over the years.
I guess having a skill/service that people want and need is a good way to make inroads this way, altough in the last decade the support side has moved almost entirely to the phone and online, to the point where I was living in Brazil and supporting a company of around 500 users for a sizable part of the week on my own.
i struggle to feel wanted, accepted, part of anything.
Long before my diagnosis I found it worked for me to do a job that got me regular appreciation, social contact and low expectations of ongoing social interaction.
I worked in IT support so got to do a lot of deskside visits in various banks head offices over the years where I learned my craft and could fix almost everything there at the time.
I found that positive contact with the staff would get the occasional invite (especially when I saved their bacon following user stupidity) to social events or - on occasions - get a date. Several longish term relationships formed this way over the years.
I guess having a skill/service that people want and need is a good way to make inroads this way, altough in the last decade the support side has moved almost entirely to the phone and online, to the point where I was living in Brazil and supporting a company of around 500 users for a sizable part of the week on my own.
