Not wanting friends?

I’m a 22 year old autistic adult and I think I don’t like having friends. I agree to plans but on the day I hate that I have to go. I’d rather do things alone. I feel most content on days where I’m alone with my close family and/or dog. My close family is all I need. Friendships feel too exhausting for me. The more I unmask, the more I realise things about myself, and I think I’m just discovering this one. Of course it makes me feel bad but I can’t change the way my brain works. I don’t want to sound like a bad person. Is there any autistic adults on here who feel the same? I don’t know who to talk to about this. 

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  • Yes I am the same I think I should make friends and make an effort so I make arrangements, but when the time draws near I really wish I hadn't made the plan. Staying at home with my hubby or when I had my darling dog, him too, is /was bliss and 100% better every time. 

    I am starting to realise that I  need to think more before I make arrangements. But also don't want to be friendless. 

    I really don't know what the answer is to this one. I find it so confusing. 

  • Also when I do force myself to go and meet up with people I usually come back regretting an overshare moment or ruminating about what I said what they said and feel unhappy. 

  • I do this all the time. I'm going to a photo exhibition tonight, and I'm already dreading saying something stupid and ruminating about it afterwards.

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