Ultra Mindfulness

Hi,

I find that concentrating on my breathing helps. For me it's challenging because my mind wonders a lot. But after a while my breathing slows down and I fall  asleep. I think it's important not to force anything, or judge it, just go with it. And be gentle with yourself x

Like i say for me it's not uncomfortable, apart from the bits of me that ache, it's just being totally present in the moment and with whats happening in that moment, is just is, there's no concious direction to it, it just happens and it just happens to keep me awake. Although maybe my brain is resting? I'm not thinking, I'm just being.

I have the total opposite for my body and internal stuff. I'd like to know what this is like!

I'm constantly (horribly) aware my body. The weight of my clothing, my foot moving within a shoe, the movements of my muscles and joints etc.

I try to practice mindfulness and meditation but trying to switch off or turn down the outside world is incredibly difficult, that's on top of the physical sensitivity.

Sleep is another problem altogether.

I don;t feel over sensitized, I feel quite calm and relaxed, I'm just really really mindful.

I call it "hyper awareness" and I don't like it because when it happens I feel over sensitised and  find it difficult to sleep. Thankfully it hasn't happened to me for a while.