Published on 12, July, 2020
Ive been considering the possibly that I may have autism for a few years now, but I’ve never done anything to about it. I’ve just taken a bunch of online assessments and stuff, but until recently I never actually made an effort to seek diagnosis bc I have always felt like an idiot for even considering it. I go online and see people talking about how everyone thinks they have autism bc of tiktok and it’s just made me feel silly for thinking that I do too.
however, recently I’ve been regularly seeing a counselor at my university who has been heavily pushing me to seriously consider seeking a diagnosis. I also have had a second counselor and even a professor tell me that some of the feelings I describe having (i struggle with severe social issues and often feel like I’m not even human bc human connection feels so impossible to me) sound like autism. So, I’m now on a waitlist. I still feel dumb for thinking I might have it and I worry that I’m going to burn $600 on this assessment just to be told I’m not autistic and an idiot for even thinking it.
Have you taken any autism tests online? The AQ (autism quotient) test was created by a leading autism expert, professor Baron-Cohen and is used in diagnosis, plus there are a few others available online that are also used and can give you a good indication. Here is a website which explains and evaluates them and where you can also take the tests: https://embrace-autism.com/a-summary-of-the-autism-tests-and-scores/
Some of us here do not have a professional diagnosis for various reasons, but anyone is welcome to post here - reading the experiences of others and feeling the same way helped me to accept that I was on the spectrum. Ask us anything you want - you are not an idiot!