I'm giving everything until the end of October

[content removed by Moderator due to breaches of the online community rules and guidelines]. I have had enough of struggling with my ADHD and Autism and the several health conditions i have. I cant get employed without having to spend in excess of 3 hours a day on a bus for part time job. The last time i was employed by my local authority they crashed my credit score and miss reported my earnings and still haven't corrected six months on. i didn't want to off myself before my mothers who is terminally ill but i cant take it any longer.

thank you all but bye

  • Dear Blue,  

    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We are sorry to hear that you are currently experiencing. It is good that you’ve let us know how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.    

    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support  

    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm:https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help 

    If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service. In in England, Wales and Scotland there is now an option to speak with mental health professionals by selecting ‘option 2’ when calling NHS 111:https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/ 

    Help for anyone struggling to cope 

    • Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  
    • Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday) 
    • SANEline: 0300 304 7000for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day)  
    • Shout 85258:a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.  

    We hope this is helpful to you.  

    Kind regards 

    Rosie Mod  

  • Dear Blue, I understand how you are feeling, I really do but please don't end your life. I have had suicidal feelings in the past, often due to not being able to cope with work, long journeys and horrible jobs along with the severe and agonising effects it has on my autism. But every day I am glad I didn't do it. I know it seems now like there is no other way out but honestly there is. No matter how much it feels like it wont get better, I believe it will

    Thinking of you and praying for you. Please contact me if there is anything I can do to help you and talk to you 

    So many people here care about you, you are part of this community and we are here for you 

  • Sorry you're in such pain Blue. We understand and really want you to stay around and keep talking on here. Try to get through this x

  • Hey Blue

    I would very much like you to stick around. I’m sorry that things are that tough for you but there are plenty of people here that understand. 

    Stick around and keep talking on here and you’ll get through this. 

  • I hear you on the pain of existence.  But I think you should stick around and see if things change beyond the end of October.