Feel alone like don’t fit in

Hi, I received my diagnosis three days ago at the age of 52!. I was expecting it as I’ve always felt different, and I’m starting to look back over my life and things make a bit more sense now.  
Strangely enough, and related to your post, I have thought for my entire life that the world is a giant board game, where everyone except me has been given a copy of the rules. 

Very often before diangnosis, now instead of thinking I'm the weird one, I know they are

I just create a new world for myself and others come to visit. Some time no one come and it's just me and my creations. Now others come and stay for extended periods. Some are regulars.

I was diagnosed a week ago and it has completely turned my world upside down, even though the diagnosis confirmed what I suspected. Not sure what my next steps are now I have the diagnosis and a bit thrown by how emotional and disorientated I have felt since finding out. Sounds like I'm not alone in feeling like this

 I received my diagnosis just under a week ago and I am up and down and exhausted.So many questions 

I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago and I just feel broken  

Yes i did feel just like that looking back.It was only recently that i came to realise that over quite a long period several people had asked me if i was autistic.I was completely ignorant as to what autism was and strangely and kind of nervously always replied no.I now know different 

Yes I feel like that. Like I'm an outsider watching the world happen and I'm not connected to anything.