Feel alone like don’t fit in

I take been a month and one day since my diagnosis and I’ve been through many array of emotions, I’ve never ever felt I’ve fitted in and now I know I’m not the problem I’m just autistic so now I will keep only those I want in my inner circle 

I was relieved to know why I never fitted in, the fact is that we are different. I have stopped trying to fit in, if other people want to be part of my world then fine, if not then that’s also fine.

It became too hard to try and blend in and mask, it led to a massive burnout. Others  here have mentioned the lack of help for autistic people, I felt the same, it was like I had been given the instruction book on autism, when I opened it every page was blank.

Hi Gary. Thanks for sharing! Yes, I think this is common for most of us. My mom is also autistic, but she is someone quite the opposite of me. She has always been a non-demonstrative type. My friends were always afraid of her growing up. Somehow, I have taken the opposite path. I am overly familiar with others. It is something that even the culturally outgoing Americans cannot accept. So, like you, I feel out of touch and alone. Can you share what your presentation style is? Have you been masking your entire life? I tried masking my ASD with humor growing up and it came off as edgy. That's why I was able to pass. But, as one gets older, this type of humor is seen as mean-spirited. Now, I am shunned by most. I often just stay home, even though I long to socialize with others.

Hi, I received my diagnosis three days ago at the age of 52!. I was expecting it as I’ve always felt different, and I’m starting to look back over my life and things make a bit more sense now.  
Strangely enough, and related to your post, I have thought for my entire life that the world is a giant board game, where everyone except me has been given a copy of the rules. 

Very often before diangnosis, now instead of thinking I'm the weird one, I know they are

I just create a new world for myself and others come to visit. Some time no one come and it's just me and my creations. Now others come and stay for extended periods. Some are regulars.

I was diagnosed a week ago and it has completely turned my world upside down, even though the diagnosis confirmed what I suspected. Not sure what my next steps are now I have the diagnosis and a bit thrown by how emotional and disorientated I have felt since finding out. Sounds like I'm not alone in feeling like this

 I received my diagnosis just under a week ago and I am up and down and exhausted.So many questions 

I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago and I just feel broken  

Yes i did feel just like that looking back.It was only recently that i came to realise that over quite a long period several people had asked me if i was autistic.I was completely ignorant as to what autism was and strangely and kind of nervously always replied no.I now know different 

Yes I feel like that. Like I'm an outsider watching the world happen and I'm not connected to anything.