Published on 12, July, 2020
For weeks I've been what can only be described as a hot mess as I've desperately been doing everything I can not to have a full on meltdown and Shutdown like I've down before, but the more I do to stop it the stronger it feels. It has either been aided by or caused me to become super manic because of my Bipolar that in turn has made my Psychosis worse, I'm more emotionally unstable (EUPD) and my dissociative amnesia has only worsened. As you can imaging I've been a nightmare to live with at home and massively masking like hell at work, that latter of which seems to be the main trigger.
I'm just so tired and just want to let go of the steering wheel so to speak and let it happen just to hit the reset button.
Should I just let it happen or continue fighting it.
Hi Danny M, Very sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. We have some resources on the NAS site that may be of some use to you, such as the mental health hub - https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health - which has sections on bipolar disorder and seeking help with mental health that might be relevant to you. If you are feeling overwhelmed and in need of help urgently, please look at our urgent help page which has a list of external resources and helplines - https://community.autism.org.uk/p/urgent-help - which includes options for email or text support as well as phone lines. Best wishes,Ross - mod