Published on 12, July, 2020
Im sick of being treated like rubbish by others. It's seems like a repeating pattern throughout my life. Surely I'm not that bad of a person so why do people look down on me and treat me badly. Everyone looks down their nose at me or underestimates me. I'm always being patronised or condescened down too. I always try not to come across as a soft touch but I suppose certain people see through that facade. I have put great effort into not being seen as approachable so people wouldnt take advantage but people can sense that I'm not that confident. Just wondering it others have the same issue?
To be honest, when I think about how my zoom "Film Night" has gone so far, I ask myself the same question.
Maybe people aren't really treating me and my attempt to bring a few of us (virtually) togtehr with my little film night, I wonder, maybe it's reasonable they should ask me to change the way I do it it before they've even attended one?
Maybe it's reasonable that people attend one, then never return without giving me any feedback why, despite me having kept this up for nearly two years...
I can never really figure this stuff out, and it seems to just come down to luck and presentation whether peoeple like what you try to do or not.
Unfortunately for me I have ONE person who really LIKES film night and attends every one, So I still need to keep doing it so I may as well keep trying to get some of the original intended audience to attend.
AS soon as I get the help I need to get it done, I will compile and publish a full list of the current full years worth of films archive, so people can haev a better chance of watching a film they realy like on the first time out.
I've got a really silly chechoslovakiakn cold war / ww2 time travel film where I defy anyone to follow the plot completely on their first outing, that I'm itching to play again, and "walkabout" a really thought provoking film I first watched when I was a very young lad, and clearly missed the half of...
People , huh!
Tonight we are watching PAUL.