Published on 12, July, 2020
I decided that maybe I'm ok not having friends. The responsibility and having to compromise my boundaries and privacy seems too much to handle.
Also I had to say no to a local monthly social group due to being in the late afternoon when the roads and buses are filled up with traffic and sprogs leaving school and feeling like I would not get anything useful from it and feeling like an outsider.
I have work friends but I never let myself get in situations of our of work socialising
I had friends for a long time on xbox but the need to go on party and chat played havoc with my senses
I have one good friend who I lost touch with but tbh I'm ok with that I have family and I talk to people at work
As a kid I would dread someone knocking on saying come out to play (one time I had kids I didn't know that well doing this and it was hell as I felt like it was the accepted thing to say yes) and I did used to go to friends houses but I quickly learned alot of the kids had no loyalty and used their friends
Yeah it's ok to not have friends in the sense of you must all go do things together simply talking is fine and if they dont respect home time is your time forget about them