My Wildlife holidays.

Iv decided to do a forum on my wildlife holidays where I can tell you about my holiday rather than just sending pictures 

cause iv been on lots of them this year rather than only sending photos. also proper  trips il tell you about and add photos to go with it on this post aswell.  cause it will be easyer and better for me but is also  for holidays cause im going on lots of holidays this year and it deserves its own thread in this sense. 

my first holiday I went on this year was Wales. I went to Snowdonia near the national park 

we saw a lamma and a  pony

with  the view we got from the cottage we stayed in was of the sea 

Jackdaws perched on the buildings when we watched tv we went for a walk and I got great pictures of the moutains 

you could see them on the beach outline at the beach the waves I saw a literally called gray heron fly past 

the waves crashed against the rocks and became fully submerged until they broke and forced its way over.  my long lens saved my life by getting me up close enough to photograph the waders and I saw Great crested grebes.

back at the cottage herring gulls at Jackdaws

 the next day we went to the waterfalls I saw yellow gorse.

the water level was high but not flooded. it was a adventure and the gorse made it look colourful

it was massive then we went down the mountain the next day we went to the sea again and I saw a cormerent. there was lots of bladder wrack which is a type of seaweed. 

seaweed are actualy a type of algae. some can surve out the water for a certain period of time. others dont survive as well it depends on the type cause theres different types of seaweed. 

this one is normaly mistake for seaweed but is actualy a type of animal instead 

in July 

im very used to wildlife watching in the uk and while I have been to menorca I havnt wildlife watched there cause I didnt have an interest in Wildlife then so this was my first time wildlife watching in a different country. 

I allways have to wear ear defenders when i go to the air port but they had disability asistance. I had to improvise cause the person that supports me that went with me hasnt gone on holiday with me before and didnt know what to say or do with my sensory challanges at the airport. the person that was with me said she thinks il be fine but I knew cause of my autism cant deal with crowds so I said I have autism and I dont like crowds so would it be ok to go where its less busy or quiter and so she took me through. there was a point where we wernt sure if I had to take my ear defenders off at the part where you have to walk through and them see if you got metal on you so I asked the lady there if I could keep them on and she went off to ask the person behind the thing you have to walk through. I was very anxious at this point. it was time to put our items on the coveyerbelt and walk through the metal thing. The person with me for the holiday and me still didnt know so I was panicing inside and i was told to take them off by the person taking me which i was reluctant to do but the plaine lady came over and thumbed up us saying not to take them off and that  i can keep them on and we went through. the flight was delayed by an hour. but it was no ones fault cause they had to help somone who couldnt walk onto the plane. so we walked and stopped every 5 minutes so people were joking about that and inpatient at the same time. eventually we got on though at last. I filmed the take off and we went over the bay of biscay on the way to Tenerife 

when landing I saw mount tede from above the clouds.

the next day I saw a canarian chiffchaff 

and I saw a Spanish sparrow for the first time. they were breeding at the hotel.

but one of my biggest highlights was snorkeling for the very first time

and the dolphins which i got to see for the very first time

 and mount tede a active volcano with many species only found on that mountain I saw crystal on a rock 

that was the last day. the next day we went on a trip but when it came to packing bags for the trip. I put my bag with the plastic bag on it ontop of my suitcase then gave it to her with the plastic bag on it but took it off and thought that she was going to put the bag in cause it didnt only have my stuff in the bag and as far as I knew the plastic bag was in the boot but at some point in the journey I wondered where the bag was and thought it might be in the boot cause i couldnt see it in the back. we checked the boot and it wasnt there. 

my ear defenders got left behind which was problomatic cause the person with me wasnt willing to go back and get the ear defenders and  soon we had to go to the air port. I was highly anxious and I found it diffucult getting her to understand the why it is important enough that we do have to go back anf get them we bought some silenceing headphones as an emergancy cause otherwise I wouldnt of been able to get on the plane. we went through disability asisstance. the plane was delayed by a couple of hours and we wernt able to get on until midnight. a teenager had a go in a wheelchair and a little boy was going up and down a slope behind me which i found acted as visual stimulation and made my anxiety worse. it isnt thetre fault its just cause im autistic but thanfuly things did cam down and at 12 o'clock we  lined up and got on the plane and came back to the uk by 4 or 5 oclock in the morning. 

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  • iv had a very unpredictable day today.  theres been more staff than normal recently which I sometimes find stressful.

     the reason for it is that I get nervous when I see lots of staff members in the staff room or walking about 3 staff members i can just cope with 4 or 5 is then considered a proper group however and my mind cant keep track of all the staff members about.

    thing is aswell as my hypersensitive hearing i can also be very sensitive to visual stimuli too and it tends to make me want to stay away from them alot.

    movement about the house can be overwhelming for me also. 

    visual stimuli is also one of the reasons  i eat on my own usualy rather than with others iv allways done this since i was a child I dont usualy cope well eating with other people.

    i run into many probloms  and people like to talk and they struggle to involve me in conversation and only talk to others,  I often get left out etc so also the social side of things this happens with not just my family but other people also and dont like people coming in when I eat.

     I also dont like people coming into my rooms either particularly if and when  without permission so i set boundarys about coming in to rooms when im on my own in them  as for me its a place to be on my own away from other people 

     in general I usualy spend lots of time to myself  or in my room thats just me but i tend to retreat to my room more under stressful circumstances. scent can also be a big problom as my nose is also hyper sensitive also i can smell scent from inside my room even with doors closed 

    one of the residents squirts perfume in the hallway downstairs. as for home my dad  puts perfume on or other spray. 

    my Mum puts stuff on that causes a smell which makes it hard for me to be near her when she does and they make my nose run or block and give me headaches. it also triggers reactions like anoyance, anxiety, and avoidance.

    aswell as noise related stimuli smell has also prevented me from doing certain things including things that are part of my routine cause i have to wait until somethig is not noisy, or theres no smell or theres no people going up and down the stairs and in and out of the kitchen too much and if i happen to find myself in the middle of it end up having to cover my nose and mouth until i get to my room or kitchen or whatever.

    with noise i run up the stairs to my room as fast as possible and then theres people the more people there are the more of an issue these things tend to be. theres been alot more staff than normal recently and also someone turned up to fix something this week and i wasnt told anything about it which caused comfusion so alot of things have been going on 

    and with more things to deal with along with the whole thing for my social worker situation as good a thing as it is. it is  naturaly is  also causeing me anxiety it has made it diffucult for me dealing with things in combination with all the un predictability and stresess.  this hasnt been noticbable to others in the house as im very reserved with my emotions but all the many things going on hasnt helped and definatly doesnt help even more when you also have a mood disorder and history of depression and an anxiety disorder then I got  the compulsions aswell which I have been struggling with.  t cause of alot of things going on.

     I have had to ask one of my support workers if she can phone the doctor and increase my mood tablet for anxiety, depression, and mood. im not dperessed just to be clear  its just the anxiety and mood side of things due to lots of things. obviously it doesnt help when your in a care home that you arnt happy in and find to be unsuitable for you and would like to leave it but of course there are is alot of things i have to deal with other than just that and  noise levels. i havnt mentioned that as my hearing tends to be more of a challange than with smell and visual stimuli comeing second and 3rd in order.

      with all the anxiety im exsperiacing at the moment it can all  add up so iv asked staff if they can phone the doctor to increase my mood tablets the staff member has said she will do it on Thursdsy and im hoping she will do cause im only taking one mood tablet at the moment and im hoping my idea might help me  with all the things going on as it can make it diffucult to cope particularly when you have lots of things going on at once. 

    but hopefuly after iv gone home and after  iv finished the list at some point this week hopefuly by Sunday and when and if my social worker sees the reasons i list for her and understands the reason for needing an alternative acomodation and I send it in time and with hope things turn out better than my anxiety is worried about like things not working out after all the years iv been working towards leaving here and things work out  and things  get moving hopefuly i will be less anxious than i have been recently. 

    of course I had the whole issue with the over sensitive filter for 3 days which probably didnt help matters but the moderators did help and sort it out in the end and  there has been alot of things going on for me  and since iv been back from my wildlife holiday so its mostly that but when everything has calmed down with all the stuff going on  I will be doing my holiday then i havnt forgotten about it its jusr that i need to wait for things  sort themselfs out and wait until things calm down for me 

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  • iv had a very unpredictable day today.  theres been more staff than normal recently which I sometimes find stressful.

     the reason for it is that I get nervous when I see lots of staff members in the staff room or walking about 3 staff members i can just cope with 4 or 5 is then considered a proper group however and my mind cant keep track of all the staff members about.

    thing is aswell as my hypersensitive hearing i can also be very sensitive to visual stimuli too and it tends to make me want to stay away from them alot.

    movement about the house can be overwhelming for me also. 

    visual stimuli is also one of the reasons  i eat on my own usualy rather than with others iv allways done this since i was a child I dont usualy cope well eating with other people.

    i run into many probloms  and people like to talk and they struggle to involve me in conversation and only talk to others,  I often get left out etc so also the social side of things this happens with not just my family but other people also and dont like people coming in when I eat.

     I also dont like people coming into my rooms either particularly if and when  without permission so i set boundarys about coming in to rooms when im on my own in them  as for me its a place to be on my own away from other people 

     in general I usualy spend lots of time to myself  or in my room thats just me but i tend to retreat to my room more under stressful circumstances. scent can also be a big problom as my nose is also hyper sensitive also i can smell scent from inside my room even with doors closed 

    one of the residents squirts perfume in the hallway downstairs. as for home my dad  puts perfume on or other spray. 

    my Mum puts stuff on that causes a smell which makes it hard for me to be near her when she does and they make my nose run or block and give me headaches. it also triggers reactions like anoyance, anxiety, and avoidance.

    aswell as noise related stimuli smell has also prevented me from doing certain things including things that are part of my routine cause i have to wait until somethig is not noisy, or theres no smell or theres no people going up and down the stairs and in and out of the kitchen too much and if i happen to find myself in the middle of it end up having to cover my nose and mouth until i get to my room or kitchen or whatever.

    with noise i run up the stairs to my room as fast as possible and then theres people the more people there are the more of an issue these things tend to be. theres been alot more staff than normal recently and also someone turned up to fix something this week and i wasnt told anything about it which caused comfusion so alot of things have been going on 

    and with more things to deal with along with the whole thing for my social worker situation as good a thing as it is. it is  naturaly is  also causeing me anxiety it has made it diffucult for me dealing with things in combination with all the un predictability and stresess.  this hasnt been noticbable to others in the house as im very reserved with my emotions but all the many things going on hasnt helped and definatly doesnt help even more when you also have a mood disorder and history of depression and an anxiety disorder then I got  the compulsions aswell which I have been struggling with.  t cause of alot of things going on.

     I have had to ask one of my support workers if she can phone the doctor and increase my mood tablet for anxiety, depression, and mood. im not dperessed just to be clear  its just the anxiety and mood side of things due to lots of things. obviously it doesnt help when your in a care home that you arnt happy in and find to be unsuitable for you and would like to leave it but of course there are is alot of things i have to deal with other than just that and  noise levels. i havnt mentioned that as my hearing tends to be more of a challange than with smell and visual stimuli comeing second and 3rd in order.

      with all the anxiety im exsperiacing at the moment it can all  add up so iv asked staff if they can phone the doctor to increase my mood tablets the staff member has said she will do it on Thursdsy and im hoping she will do cause im only taking one mood tablet at the moment and im hoping my idea might help me  with all the things going on as it can make it diffucult to cope particularly when you have lots of things going on at once. 

    but hopefuly after iv gone home and after  iv finished the list at some point this week hopefuly by Sunday and when and if my social worker sees the reasons i list for her and understands the reason for needing an alternative acomodation and I send it in time and with hope things turn out better than my anxiety is worried about like things not working out after all the years iv been working towards leaving here and things work out  and things  get moving hopefuly i will be less anxious than i have been recently. 

    of course I had the whole issue with the over sensitive filter for 3 days which probably didnt help matters but the moderators did help and sort it out in the end and  there has been alot of things going on for me  and since iv been back from my wildlife holiday so its mostly that but when everything has calmed down with all the stuff going on  I will be doing my holiday then i havnt forgotten about it its jusr that i need to wait for things  sort themselfs out and wait until things calm down for me 

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  • No rush for the holiday posts, but I am looking forward to when you can post about them.

    The thing that I always notice with your posts is the similarities that I have too - even though our lives are so different.

    • I would not want people coming into my room without permission. I hope that the staff remember these boundaries
    • You are very good at knowing about all your sensitivities. I have similar ones (I have to go downstairs when my wife uses the hair dryer every morning, for example). But I didn't know that I had them and spent many years being anxious and not knowing why. I wish that someone like you had been around to explain this stuff to me all those years ago. My wife only wears perfume now when it is a special occasion.
    • The more anxious that I am, the less likely I can do a task. Even ones that seem simple to other people.

    Even with the short notice, I hope that you have nice time with your family today.