Something happened that was out of my control. I didn't know what was going to happen next, what had been said, if it could happen again, if I was being told the truth. I totally lost control, pacing, this makes be calmer, my head was going to explode with all the thoughts. I was crying, angry and I just couldn't explain what the problem was at the time because I was out of control. I only know now because I was helped to calm down by someone and now I'm feeling in control I can discuss what the problem was. I'm not diagnosed yet was this a meltdown? What was it?