Published on 12, July, 2020
got a call in the afternoon letting me know clinical partners can confirm a diagnosis for autism. And I’m not sure if this is shock or the actual realisation but I feel like it’s not true and I’m still lying… almost wanting to seek a second opinion,
I haven’t gotten my report yet so I’ll wait to read that.
Not sure if this is a normal reaction but I’m low-key scared.
I know I was the one that went seeking a diagnosis and now I have it i don’t want it ungrateful much.
thanks for reading
Congratulations on diagnosis, you now have some of the answers you've needed, may not feel like it now but it's hugely positive. That odd feeling of negative is pretty normal, don't worry about feeling unexpected grief and negativity about diagnosis.
Most people on here will have been the same in some way or another. It's a moment where you find out that you can't ever be that thing you hoped to be, what we all for some time perceive as "normal". Now, over time you'll realise there really isn't a normal to aspire to. We're all different, some more than other, which is why "neuro typical" is used to describe the "average" or "typical" person, which is a fairly thin slice of the population!
Now you know you are autistic and that's how you differ, it's the time to look at all the materials out there , soak them up and relate to them, understand your differences and find ways to be kinder to yourself and get through life without as many issues.
No rush, take your time, it's a journey and you just started the first steps. You'll probably find yourself flipping around between a lot of different emotions over the coming weeks, it's perfectly normal. It will all be ok.