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Do you hate people?

lina-chan
3 months ago

Hi there, I'm not sure how to start this post.

I feel that I have become pessimistic when it comes to people. For context, I am an autistic woman in her early 20's; I have unfortunately had poor experiences in my life where I've been ostracised/bullied in secondary school and also verbally abused/gaslit by extended family. I've also had bad experiences with friendships where people always used me and took advantage of my kind-hearted nature. Because of these experiences, I have come to hate most people as I feel that the majority have ulterior motives and only want to befriend you or be in a relationship so they can take advantage of you.

One thing that kind of helps is I do have quality friends in my life (some of which are autistic) who accept me as I am, the same applies to my parents/aunt. I recently met an Italian guy online via Instagram; for context he follows my YouTube channel and Instagram account where I post art and gaming related stuff - he is also into gaming like myself and has the same socials/Twitch acc. When I talk to him, I feel a nice warmth inside because he understands me and he does show signs of autism/possible ADHD. 

I feel that it is very hard to trust people nowadays and I often guard myself and don't talk about certain things like my mental health, I am used to faking that everything is OK so nobody judges me.

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  • 3 months ago

    Thank you for feeling you could share this and know that it mirrors my experience in life so far though I am in my mid 30s

    For me, understanding my previously perceived "failures" in friendship and society were actually part of a neurodevelopmental condition was greatly healing. 

    I've ended up with a growing friendship group of beautiful mostly neurodivergent people now and it's a bit of a eureka moment realising I actually wasn't the problem 

    Still this doesn't undermine the trauma that came with years of rejection or being out of place but it begins to make things right in some way

    Remember you're worth an awful lot more than everyone else's expectations of you and to mirror another posters response, though challenging, conserve your energy for those who deserve it

    Take care 

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  • 3 months ago

    Thank you for feeling you could share this and know that it mirrors my experience in life so far though I am in my mid 30s

    For me, understanding my previously perceived "failures" in friendship and society were actually part of a neurodevelopmental condition was greatly healing. 

    I've ended up with a growing friendship group of beautiful mostly neurodivergent people now and it's a bit of a eureka moment realising I actually wasn't the problem 

    Still this doesn't undermine the trauma that came with years of rejection or being out of place but it begins to make things right in some way

    Remember you're worth an awful lot more than everyone else's expectations of you and to mirror another posters response, though challenging, conserve your energy for those who deserve it

    Take care 

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