Published on 12, July, 2020
Is it just me or have any of you also noticed that other autistic people can be quite stuck up and unfriendly. I don’t if it’s only me that has the awareness to notice this but yeh every autistic person I have met it’s like they think they are better than the rest of us and that they are above everyone. I don’t get why they are like this it kind of bugs me. I met an autistic guy one time and all he did was tell me negative stories about his life and I had only known him 5 mins. He goes ‘school I was bullied’ ‘girlfriend left me’, never going to date women again etc. I don’t get why everything has to be so negative when I talk to fellow autistic folks. They never have anything nice or good to say at least when I speak to them it’s always ‘nothing ever happens for me’, ‘everything is everyone else’s fault’ etc. This kind of attitude stinks and no one wants to be around someone that thinks like that. This isn’t an attack on autistic people after all I am autistic too and have been guilty of doing the very thing I am criticising. I have moaned and complained and chose to focus on the negative too in the past. I am just curious if anyone knows why this is the case? Why do I not fit in amongst autistic people? I much prefer being around happy people. But to this day I have never met a happy autistic person. It’s always the same old negativity and depressing thoughts and low self esteem that makes you not want to be around them sadly. I just want these autistic people I meet to cheer up and enjoy the world and I feel so much sympathy for them and want them to feel happiness like everyone else. I wish with all my heart that I could help these people. Because it makes me so sad to see all these depressed autistic people who are in so much pain and anguish. They don’t deserve it! Everyone deserves to find happiness in life. I never met an autistic person who was enjoying their life it’s so unfair! These autistic people never asked to be born with this disability. These autistic people are missing out on life and it makes me so sad! It’s like autistic people are in they’re own little world where they just watch the world pass them by and aren’t really aware of what they’re missing out on. At least that’s how it feels to me. I was in my own little world separate from everyone else now I am more connected to my fellow man. I see now what I couldn’t see before.
It took me a while to understand that just because another individual is autistic doesn't mean that we will automatically be perfect for each other as friends. I put my foot in it many times, and I think the autistic person reacted way worse than a non-autistic person might have done. Especially if the other person doesn't understand my sense of humour.
I did used to have a bit of a complex of "why is it so hard", although I've managed to lower my expectations. Especially as I lost all my friends due to me having done something incredibly stupid, so at least I know there's nothing to lose.