I tried telling one of my friends the truth for the mistakes I have made only made things worse. A few weeks back I did that stupid thing with the burner phone and I told my friend that I pretended to be her to contact my other friend. I’m not proud at all I did what I did because of the trauma of my mums death that even though it’s been 3 years at the end of the month I’m still struggling and that causes me to act out on impulse but I am looking into therapy to help with my behaviours. Anyway I told my friend last night and she is really angry and hurt and said that she no longer wants to see me anymore only in ASD support group. She hardly goes to that because she works in a school full time and only goes when it is half term. I still haven’t told my other friend but I don’t think it’s the right time yet as the two of us have been getting on really well since we had a small break from one another on Sunday he picked me up in his car we enjoyed the sun and he cooked us a nice meal in the evening. I will tell him but not for a while longer yet. Both my friends involved in the incident are on the spectrum but I don’t know what to I have hurt one of my closest friends and I am really not proud of my actions I only did what I did out of desperation and fear but as they say your actions have consequences and that is fact for me. I really want to make it up to my friend I have hurt so badly I just don’t know how.
