I feel like not fully grown up/mature

Does anyone else feel like this? It’s so hard to regulate emotions after someone screamed at me or I had a misunderstanding and feel like a total idiot and loser for not understanding or asking questions. Strong light, sounds of scanners, people talking and laughing loud, strollers being moved on the floor and many other sounds that usually don’t make me feel disregulated today made me crazy and crying I had to hide so no one sees me crying. It was so hard to calm down and soothe myself. I pressed my forehead with my hands and sat for few minutes. This is why I feel like a child in an adult body. Terribly embarrassing. I’m high functioning- I’m a child functioning in adult world and trying to cope. Does anyone have any thoughts, advice, experience, stories to share, I’ll be happy. 

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  • I struggle massively with confrontation and it's even worse when it's unexpected, I can plan (and do) for almost every eventuality but the totally unexpected floors me.

    I work in a noisy environment that can be difficult, I bought filter type ear plugs that cut some higher frequencies and background noise.

    I sort of dissociate when I'm really stressed, I go really quiet. I've been told by a coworker that I go "dark" and it's unsettling.

    I think many of us have similar stories to tell and have developed coping strategies to help.

    You have to take care of yourself. 

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  • I struggle massively with confrontation and it's even worse when it's unexpected, I can plan (and do) for almost every eventuality but the totally unexpected floors me.

    I work in a noisy environment that can be difficult, I bought filter type ear plugs that cut some higher frequencies and background noise.

    I sort of dissociate when I'm really stressed, I go really quiet. I've been told by a coworker that I go "dark" and it's unsettling.

    I think many of us have similar stories to tell and have developed coping strategies to help.

    You have to take care of yourself. 

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